I don't really have much to write about this morning. The usual is going on through my head: I hate my job, I wish I were somewhere else, I am so ready for my Wii...I can write what I did this past weekend!!! Well...on Friday we went to Logan's show which was pretty darn fun (I've got pictures!!!). Went to Barry's house afterwards which is where everyone I guess usually goes after a show. We hung out there for a few hours then Megan and I went back to her house and passed out like we hadn't slept in days. Saturday night i did not feel like dressing up or spending money or doing any kind of work (lol) so Daniel and I just went to Duke's and met up with some homies (i've got pictures of this too but they are on a different camera...ill get them on soon i promise). After we left there we went to this dude Brents apartment. This was one of the nicest apartments i have ever seen!! Im talkin wood floors and giant balcony. The bath tub was kinda round and had a curved shower curtain pole! I don't see many fancy things because im sure it wasnt that fancy in other peoples eyes lol. Well we hung out there for just a little bit...i was so so tired. We played Nintendo...yes...Mario Bros like whoa. It was awesome!! I have never ever played old nintendo on a new big tv i thought it was the coolest thing. You know how i get excited about random things! Just imagine!!! Ok well im going to get to work on some business. I have to get everything organized so i can find someone to replace me. I dont want to work here anymore. I think im going to sign up for some classes and work at a daycare or something when im not going to school. I'll stick to something i know...then when i get my business degree or take a few classes that can help me with all the things i handle now..ill come back. Here are a few pictures to give you an idea of my Friday night. ill post more soon! I ♥ You!!
-SoSexy!!!!
P.S.: PFL said something about fancy stuff on Valentines day and I am so excited like whoa...I hope everything works out well. Cross your fingers!!!!
Megan, Ashley and Pierce at the Liquid Lounge.
Megan, Ashley and I...i love our facial expressions!
Logan and the band: Centralia Burning. They started playing a Christmas song I dont remember what it was but it was so so so awesome it sounded like the Transiberian Orchestra!!!
I like how its like so rock n roll...then you see Logan's work boots like hes all country. lol.
They really were into it...even though it looks like their staring at something in awe.
I listen to this song alot. Usually when I'm driving in my car. I love the lyrics and the way he sings. Mad props to little bro for getting me hooked on Thrice. I'm falling in love with them...
Here is a glimpse into my morning so far: Every morning I open my eyes, roll over (I'm usually on my tummy), look up at my ceiling and think can I please sleep just 30 minutes longer?? Then I look at my phone and turn off Walk the Line-Johnny Cash that wakes me up every morning. I then get out of bed on the right side (don't ask me why, it just seems like things go better when i do) and walk to the bathroom. I look in the mirror with eyes half shut and go tinkle and think about how awesome the shower I am about to take is going to feel. Then I turn on the shower and get in and remember that my hot water lasts MAYBE a maximum of ten minutes, so I have to wake up real fast and go into speed mode. It stinks. It has been so so long since I have been able to wake up early and get in the shower just to stand there for a good 10 minutes with the hot hot water hitting me before I start washing myself. So I get out of the shower and right away I'm up. I'm like a puppy, I'm awake, there is nothing stopping me now but this morning...this morning I am so not awake. I did everything I mentioned above and I am still sitting at my desk with eyes barely open. Now, I have just realized it...I'm getting OLD. I didn't go out and party hard or anything last night. I went bowling! Then I went to a bar but I was at home in bed by midnight. I usually fall asleep around like 12:30 anyway, I don't understand how doing that activity could make me feel so listless. I guess I am just not made to go out on weekdays anymore. I'm not even sure about weekends anymore. Cuddling up on the couch with a movie sounds like the perfect evening for me right now. OK here it is I know you are dying to know how I did in bowling last night. I didn't get an awesome score or anything. I am not that good at bowling. I always tend to twist my arm at the last second making the ball roll to the left or right. Yes, I do make a lot of gutter balls...want to fight about it? I also can make a strike every now and then and when I do it is such an awesome feeling. Until you turn around and realize no one was watching. Then its like OK well y'all just don't watch me at all anymore because I seem to do better when you're not! I would make a gutter ball...then I'd knock them all down and get a spare. I was totally learning from my mistakes! I'm going to write about something that's becoming near and dear to my heart now. My PFLBFHBD couldn't get a pass. For anything. It made me sad to hear that. Not because I will most likely not get to see him but because he won't be able to see his family. Family is the most important thing especially during the holidays. I just hope everything goes how he wants it to. I would love for him to be happy this Christmas, regardless of who its with. :-D. I suppose I should be getting back to work. Got to be able to say I earned my money instead of just sitting on my bottom all day. Hopefully someone gets me a camera for Christmas so I can start taking pictures of the things I write about. Then I can look cool like some other people on here, ha ha. Lots of love.
I started writing this blog this morning and i didnt like anything i had put in it. So i deleted it and have been sitting her for a little bit now trying to think of what i should write about now. I keep getting sidetracked and watching music videos and My Name Is Earl on tv though. I guess i could start with what i did this weekend. Well on Friday me and my bff richard went to the movies to see role models...but the lady said its packed though yall will probably have to sit on the front row and i was like uh no its ok so we went back to his apartment to hang out and stuff since there wasnt much goin on and T-Rav came over and said something about a party in rockwall so we were like ok sure why not. Then i was like oh Amandas in town (my old best friend since like the seventh grade) and Richard was like no way and called her and then she said she might stop by and i was like yeah she probably wont...but she did! And me an Amanda talked for awhile about stuff just catching up because we hadnt really talked in a while. She doesnt call me...i dont call her...we just fell out and it made me so sad. When she had knocked on the door i was so excited that i almost started crying...but i didnt and i played it cool lol. So then Travis said the whole awkward well we were gonna go to a party but Richard didnt tell yall...but were going to be leaving here pretty soon. But it all worked out fine and me and trav and richard drove the 45 minutes to rockwall and on the way someone called and said to get beer and i swear we stopped at like 5 places before finding one that sold beer and it was like 2 minutes after 12 and they wouldnt sell it to us! so we went without beer and i didnt know a single person at this party...richard knew a few just cuz it was i guess all the same ppl travis hung out with at UT. So i just kinda stood around all night making random conversation with random folk...then we drove the 45 minutes home and then i drove home from richards and got in bed and went to sleep. Then saturday i went far far away allen and hung out with megan then drive to far far away mckinney which is not that far from allen but still far from my apt and hung out with one of my old buddies alex and his friend grames who had just got back from iraq like a week ago. Then some of alex's friends came over..it was a couple a and they were both texas tech fans so they wanted OSU to win but i wanted OU to win and i said something about it and the chick was like "did you go to OU?" and i was like no...but my whole family are OU fans and my cousin goes there...and she was like but did YOU go to OU..and i was like no. That ticked me off a little bit so you know i was like Did you go to OSU?? and she was like no but we went to tech and i was like so...did you go to OSU and then she started explaining the whole big 12 thing and how so and so needs to win to whatever and i was like well i dont care i want OU to win. Then i was like how about we change the subject. So after being a badass singer in rockband and some of a Caramel Apple Cider with extra caramel and whip cream from starbucks we started drinking games and my oh my were these drinking games crazy. Megan was buzzin after the first one and i would get a little tipsy then it would go away then come back. Ugh it was fun but sure was horrible. Then i got a text from this super awesome guy that im talking too basically saying that he was worried about me cuz he hadnt heard from me in awhile which totally made my night. Then i played one more game and got in my car to drive home while i spoke with that super awesome guy the whole long long drive home. Then got in bed to only sleep for a few hours before having to wake up to take my mom to the airport at 7am. Then i got back at around 8 and went to sleep until like 11 and took my brother to work at sonic and got some food and came home and snuggled up with a blanket on the couch and put in Definitly, maybe (which i LOVED btw) and stayed here almost all day long it was fabulous. I got like an allergy attack and had to get my brother to go get my medicing then i went to sleep early to wake up a couple hours later because of the stupid medicine. Then i fell asleep for good and woke up and went to work and talk to my super awesome guy and had a fantastic day. And now im here. Talking to my computer. Asking why it dies so quickly? Why do i have to have you plugged in all the time? Is it becuase i havent named you yet? Ok i will name you Pooter..because your bottoms always hot like your tooting. Lol. yeah i know im a goober. Its ok thats why some people HEART me. I think that this will be the best christmas ever. I am so so so so so super duper excited. I have a feeling things are going to go awesome. Almost perfect! So i was just on facebook and Cary messaged me asking if i could take a little survey for his psych class. I said ok only cuz your kinda cool. He said i need 3 adjectives to describe you and 3 to describe your perfect mate. So i thought and thought and for myself i put: Lively, dramatic and happy. Im not sure why i put dramatic im not extremely dramatic just a little bit and i didnt want to say like beautiful or anything because i didnt want to sound conceited lol. I already know everyone knows im beautiful i dont have to say it...HAHA wow i crack myself up. Now for my ideal mate i put: Handsome, romantic and i said obedient but was like jk jk...and said funny. I've thought about it and funny is so true. If a guy can make me laugh it doesnt matter what he looks like i will be attracted to him...and if a guy is cute AND can make me laugh then HOT DOG! thats what im talkin about! Now let me look for a great song to match my long pointless blog. Then this will be done and you will be happy because you got to get a little bit of my thoughts. Do you feel lucky? I do.
I was born in Miami, Florida (this is one of the reasons the dolphins are my team what what yeah boy) and moved to like St. Louis for a month or so before moving down here to Texas. We lived in Irving, Garland, Carrollton, and who knows who else before I was 6. We ended up staying in Carrollton where I lived until I turned about 18 or 19. Thats when my need for change kicked in. Since then I've lived in Dallas by the High Five and in Richardson...and addison. I recently moved back to Carrollton only finding that i want to now get out of Texas all together. I am trying to save up enough money so i can go with my grandma and grandpa on the yearly trip to Europe. I went when i was like 13 but I want to go now that im older and can appreciate it better. Ive thought about going with them and then just being like...nah i think ill stay here whenever its time to board the plane back to dallas. Oddly enough i have really really been interested in moving to Idaho. I think i mention that in an earlier blog. I went to http://www.visitidaho.org/ and WOW talk about pretty. My friend said yeah your going to move there and get bored and i was like whatever i can entertain myself dude! Who knows what will happen. As long as im happy. That is all im worried about now. I know it sounds selfish but my whole life i have put others first and worried about what everyone else thought and i wasnt true to myself. Now I can be. That doesnt mean im going to be a selfish biotch about everything...im just going to think more about the decisions i make. For example..when i go out and want to pay for everyone because they say their broke...then i go home and have to scrimp and save for the next week because i have no money. Stuff like that. I just need to listen to Mama. One thing that i have learned over the last few years is MAMA IS ALWAYS RIGHT. She brought you into this world and she CAN take you out. My mom used to always say that...actually i think she said it like last week...lol. Well anyways, I'm at work and should be working so...i guess i better get back to it. BTW I'm totally excited for December..not just for Christmas but i'll get to see my PFLBFHBD :-D. He sure is somethin special. Oh and im sending out the care package to my buddy in Iraq...Pray that he gets it, if not in time for, then on Christmas! I told him to take lots of pictures of him opening it so i can pretend im there lol. Ill be back to write some more soon. I love you, you, you, you and YOU. Especially you... ;)
I know American Baby isn't a Christmas carol but this is one of the songs that for some reason reminds me of Christmas time. When i was 19 and i had first moved out i moved into my friend Lara's one bedroom apartment. it was one of those apartments that were two stories...kind of like a town home but it was on the second floor. I had the living room basically. I remember i had gone to walmart and bought that inflatable Disney princess bed for kids. It was the most comfortable bed ever after it was a bit deflated. Not to mention it had a big inflatable castle around it and was purple and pink. I know you can picture me sleeping in one of those no doubt. Lara and i would get a bottle of Reunite Lambrusco each and start a fire and just hang out. Well that year i had bought the Dave Matthews Live at the Rock cd. It was amazing. I would always listen to it like alllll the time. Maybe that's why it reminds me of Christmas time. Lara had an inflatable Christmas tree that we had blown up in the living room. It was great good times good time.
This weekend has mostly been spent vegging out. Its fabulous. I may have gone out in the evenings but there are not many things that i love more then sitting on this couch and watching movies i haven't seen in years. For example...clueless is on my television as we speak and i am in a very comfortable position even with my laptop in my lap. Maggie is sprawled out comfortably on the couch as well. We feed off each others laziness.
I've met someone. I don't want to brag too much about it. Its a bit complicated. But he does make me feel super special and like...its amazing and its weird and crazy and i don't even know how to describe it. I just know that things are looking really well...and I'm excited about potential future situations. :-D . I know what i want now. I know what kind of person i need to be happy. I hope that everything works out nicely! Ok well I'm having trouble focusing on this and the movie at the same time so i will definitely be back to update.
Last night as I was peacefully and FINALLY starting to fall asleep after lying in bed for a good hour staring at the walls...my mom got home. I swear it was like the devil had got into her head and stirred some crap up. She was LIVID. She starts yelling "IS YOUR BROTHER HERE YET??" and I'm thinking Oh MY GOODNESS GRACIOUS WHAT THE HEEZY...apparently my little brother had told my dad he was staying and me and my moms apartment...then went downtown somewhere. Could this child get into any more trouble? Its ridiculous...I dont think i ever did that crap. I know i know ive done the whole im spending the night at brookes house and then go out to a club but that was when i was like 18 and out of school. My mom wasnt dumb she knew exactly what i was doing it was just like...and unspoken agreement. My brother is 17 and is still in school...AND hes not using the whole im spending the night at a friends house hes using my mom. That is way unnacceptable. All i know is i got involved in this as soon as mom woke me up screamin for him. I said Mom we have neighbors!!!!! She didnt care! But when im throwin my little hissy fit because i got the wrong thing from wendys its all about worrying if the neighbors can hear! (i know two totally different things but you know what i mean...) So her and i are calling my brother non-stop and she calls his girlfriend and she says that he had lost his phone...and that he had called her from his friends phone. Then he finally calls and shes yelling and screaming at him and hes saying hes in downtown and he cant make it home fast and bla bla bla. I fall asleep again and he comes home then it starts all over again. So...im sleepy. Thats the point of that long ass story...im sleepy and so happy its friday. I talked to my mom this morning about Thanksgiving...she has been trying to plan out what my brother and i are going to do. Things become a bit more difficult with holidays and stuff since my mom and dad divorced. All week has been them arguing back and forth about whos going to whos for dinner and what not. My mom tried to get me to talk to my dad about it and i said no way no way no way. I thought i had had it all planned out then she changed it all up so she needed to talk to him about it. I find myself telling her "I'm not my father" alot lately. I think its all figured out now though. My grandpa is one of my friends on facebook and i think im going to delete him because he wont stop asking me questions about my status (haha). For example: Him: What does your little status thing mean on your Facebook...its weird? Me: What are you talking about?? Him: The one you have on there! Me: That place in my mind is the space you call mine?? Him: No, no...thats weird too though... Me: I wish things were different?? Him: Yeah that one what do you wish was different?? Me: I dont know...i wish i wasnt in Texas anymore...i wish i had my OWN car that i could drive anywhere as far as i want...i wish i had more money and stability to work with...everything basically!! Why? its not for you to ask about its just for you to read and wonder!! Him: Well whats stopping you?? Leave then! Me: I dont know I've got like a job and stuff (hes my boss btw) Him: Well im sorry your job is keeping you from doing the things you want! Heh heh..But Old Chinese proverb says...(something something something) the first step...and this is your first step..your first step is to start remembering things! So send me my email with my schedule for tomorrow reminding me to wake up early! And if you want to travel then you should join the AIRFORCE (its his new thing, telling me to join the airforce) Me: AAlllllriiiiiiigggghhhhttt....thank you!!! Byyyyye!
So that has been my morning so far...Then after doing multiple invoices and entering bank statements and printing checks and closing envelopes and going to pick up Kelly (the other weiner dog that lives with my grandma and grandpa) and going and taking Maggie out (my mom blind weiner dog) and then coming back to the office and doing more nonsense i will be off, and it will be the weekend, and i will be able to do nothing but what i want to do! Yay for freedom. I still have to clean my room and do some laundry and pick up around the apartment to make mama happy...but then after that i will really be free. I think its...Dukes here we come. Yay for i think $5 pitchers? Yay for beer. MMM cerveza. Yay for friends in low places...and in high places. Yay for sleeping in on weekends and being lazy on Sundays. Yay for laptops without which i wouldnt be able to talk to a certain someone as much as i do. Yay for chinese food. Yay for super long blogs! Yay for Jeff and his over active brain that drives me crazy when he goes off on his little talking rampages about the craziest things in the world like the way he feels about girls and being androgynous or something like that but its ok because its what has kept me so interested in his life for the last 7 years. Yay for Megan and he finishing student teaching finally after not getting paid for working for sooooo long. Yay for Pumas. Yay for me possibly finally getting to be in real snow sometime this winter (wink wink). Yay for potential future boyfriends and stuff. Ok ive got so many yays...ill stop for now. I will come back on Sunday probably to talk about my weekend to come. I love you. You. You are awesome. You are what makes stuff great. YOU!
This is my first blog. I used to do this a long time ago...like 4 or 5 years. I think im at a point where ive got too much going on inside my head and i need to get some of it out. I recently broke up with my boyfriend...he turned mean. He was so awesome and we got along great then the last year it just kind of fell apart...like he didnt really like me anymore. But now that i broke up with him he wants to act like i was everything to him and tell me how much he needs me...and its like you should of tried harder dude. I think ive been taking the whole break up really well. A little too well actually. I think its finally starting to hit me that im alone again...and im trying to be really strong. I need to realize that i dont need a boyfriend to be happy. Its still a difficult emotional struggle. I dont want to get back with him...not at all. Its the company and the comfort that there was that i miss. That stability...that knowing that someone will be there when you get home. Now its like i get home and im stuck with my millions of random thoughts and if i dont have something to keep me busy i fall into this funk. I think i might just be pmsing or something...but its like anything makes me want to cry. Maybe letting everything out on here might help...i mean whats the worse that can happen. Its like when i feel something is going awesome and the way it should be it does a total 180 and goes the opposite. Ive taught myself to not get too excited about anything anymore because i just get disappointed by the outcome but sometimes you just cant help it. I played tennis last night and im very sore...my arm is like shaking, my legs feel like jello...i would love to be able to drive back home and crawl into my nice warm bed with my teddy bear and stay there until the weekend. That would be the most awesome thing in the whole world. But nope gotta work...gotta make that paper. At least tomorrows Friday already! So i guess this blog hasnt really meant much...just me jotting down the first thing that comes to mind. From now on ill actually write about something...i promise. I'm pretty scatterbrained if you cant tell...i cant really stay on one subject i go off on to tangents. I've decided that this summer im going to do the whole Europe thing...then when i get back im moving to Idaho. I guess thats a little far to move alone but...i just want to go somewhere i need a change of scenary....maybe california. that would be real pretty...im not sure i could handle earthquakes though...id probably freak out. North Carolina?? Theres a beach there...idk i guess ill just have to wait and see where life takes me. Im a go with the flow kinda girl and i just need to stop getting attached. Attachments seem to cause nothing but trouble. Well im going to end this one and see where life takes me today. What is it Thursday? Maybe ill have a little movie night...make a date with myself. Ill write again soon.
