Yup.

Friday is my last day with my grandpas company. I am going back to the service industry. I promised myself I wouldn't go back to it...but I think it might be my calling. I actually think that rather it be waitressing, bartending or managing a restaurant/bar...it is where I am supposed to be. I have too much energy and am too much of a "people person" to be cooped up behind a desk all day long. I have not been able to save any money because every two weeks I get checks that aren't even big enough to support me and usually by the next check I have little or no money left. Its a horrible feeling. The feeling of having nothing. I went to dollar beer night last night...and couldn't afford a dollar beer. How pathetic does that sound?? Well yesterday I put in my direct deposit for the check that I should be getting tomorrow...and I also gave my grandfather a check to sign that is my reimbursement for getting new tires on the car. I start working at the restaurant on Monday and will soon be getting cash in hand everyday. I think it will work out pretty well with already having money in the bank. I am going to treat it as if I have nothing and that all the cash I make from now on is new. I want to try and keep a base amount in my account. I have always tried to but it never worked out. I think I can actually do it this time though. I might use this next paycheck to get new workout shoes though. I wore them last night and the heel fell off of my left one. Good thing it was when I was leaving the bar. But of course I had to stop at CVS to get my mom some Robitusson so...I had to limp into the store with a missing heel. Oh and with my luck..there was a big group of firemen and an ambulance right in front of the door because a random homeless person (in Carrollton? I know...) walked into the store saying he was going to have a seizure or something. Poor guy. Its kind of selfish to me to be worried about what everyone was thinking of me when he was sittin on the ground. I had been so looking forward to go to my comfy bed with my comfy comforter though. Oh well. I've got to get to work. I need to stop procrastinating. I've got alot of work to do and I've got to finish it all by Friday. After Friday I am done. And I dont have to do anything with the company unless i want to after i get my degrees. YAY me! Okay here are a few pictures from last night::::




Proof the sole of my shoe fell off haha.



Don't worry babe, were posin he's not really tryin to beat me up.



Eder and Kate.



Thats all for now.

Love you!

-Solita

I know its been a little bit since ive written anything new so i thought i would get on and do a bit this morning. My Christmas went well, i got everything i wanted! I got two cameras, a wii, gift cards and the perfume i really wanted. Now i smell good all the time :-D. My New Years was okay. It wasnt the best one ever but it didnt stink. I was with my friends and it was fun...it was a little sad though when it hit midnight and everyone was a couple who kissed and i was kind of just standing there. Its ok though...its good for me to have a few lonely moments...it makes me stronger. Plus i know when i do have my right man i will never let him go. I will do everything in my heart and make sure hes happy. I must be happy of course...i wasnt happy in my last relationship and had to be really strong to make the decision to get out of it. It has taken alot of will power. Daniel kinda gets on me for answering the phone every now and then when he calls. He says im encouraging him. I havent talked to him in awhile though so its ok. I think he has finally started to move on. I'm happy for him and im happy i dont have to get that stressed out feeling as soon as i see his number calling. Ok new subject because that is lame. I am ready for Frank to come down here. I am very, very anxious about the visit. I dont think i want anything else more...ok maybe a new car but you know. It would be nice to have someone around to hug and kiss and love on. Someone that makes me feel like nothing in the world could hurt me. Its a kind of feeling that only someone special can give you...I think that it could be great. Our relationship is kind of a difficult one. We will need to fit like ten dates into each visit. I think it could all be worth it. The end results of so much patience and trust could be amazing. He makes me really happy. Even from so far away. I cant even begin to imagine how happy i will be with him here. If it werent for him i would most likely be depressed and not have any will power. I wouldnt work as hard as i do. I know exactly what i would be doing...because i did it before i met him...i would be lying on the couch in the bent area with my blanket...and not moving. I would probably have random spouts of crying. I hate that feeling. I dont have it anymore. Since the first night i talked to him while in my bathroom getting ready to go out on a friday night i have been nothing but optimistic about the future. Its so great. I literally am not sure if i could be getting by as well as i do emotionally without him. Ok thats alot of mushiness...i'm sorry i kinda drug that on a bit. Ok well...this is the end of todays post. Maybe i will do another one soon...if you're lucky. :-D.

Love,
Solita

A Rocktastic Weekend!!

I don't really have much to write about this morning. The usual is going on through my head: I hate my job, I wish I were somewhere else, I am so ready for my Wii...I can write what I did this past weekend!!! Well...on Friday we went to Logan's show which was pretty darn fun (I've got pictures!!!). Went to Barry's house afterwards which is where everyone I guess usually goes after a show. We hung out there for a few hours then Megan and I went back to her house and passed out like we hadn't slept in days. Saturday night i did not feel like dressing up or spending money or doing any kind of work (lol) so Daniel and I just went to Duke's and met up with some homies (i've got pictures of this too but they are on a different camera...ill get them on soon i promise). After we left there we went to this dude Brents apartment. This was one of the nicest apartments i have ever seen!! Im talkin wood floors and giant balcony. The bath tub was kinda round and had a curved shower curtain pole! I don't see many fancy things because im sure it wasnt that fancy in other peoples eyes lol. Well we hung out there for just a little bit...i was so so tired. We played Nintendo...yes...Mario Bros like whoa. It was awesome!! I have never ever played old nintendo on a new big tv i thought it was the coolest thing. You know how i get excited about random things! Just imagine!!! Ok well im going to get to work on some business. I have to get everything organized so i can find someone to replace me. I dont want to work here anymore. I think im going to sign up for some classes and work at a daycare or something when im not going to school. I'll stick to something i know...then when i get my business degree or take a few classes that can help me with all the things i handle now..ill come back. Here are a few pictures to give you an idea of my Friday night. ill post more soon! I ♥ You!!

-SoSexy!!!!

P.S.: PFL said something about fancy stuff on Valentines day and I am so excited like whoa...I hope everything works out well. Cross your fingers!!!!



Megan, Ashley and Pierce at the Liquid Lounge.



Megan, Ashley and I...i love our facial expressions!



Logan and the band: Centralia Burning. They started playing a Christmas song I dont remember what it was but it was so so so awesome it sounded like the Transiberian Orchestra!!!



I like how its like so rock n roll...then you see Logan's work boots like hes all country. lol.





They really were into it...even though it looks like their staring at something in awe.

Ok well take care! Talk to yall soon!!!!

Lethargic and In Love

I listen to this song alot. Usually when I'm driving in my car. I love the lyrics and the way he sings. Mad props to little bro for getting me hooked on Thrice. I'm falling in love with them...

Here is a glimpse into my morning so far:
Every morning I open my eyes, roll over (I'm usually on my tummy), look up at my ceiling and think can I please sleep just 30 minutes longer?? Then I look at my phone and turn off Walk the Line-Johnny Cash that wakes me up every morning. I then get out of bed on the right side (don't ask me why, it just seems like things go better when i do) and walk to the bathroom. I look in the mirror with eyes half shut and go tinkle and think about how awesome the shower I am about to take is going to feel. Then I turn on the shower and get in and remember that my hot water lasts MAYBE a maximum of ten minutes, so I have to wake up real fast and go into speed mode. It stinks. It has been so so long since I have been able to wake up early and get in the shower just to stand there for a good 10 minutes with the hot hot water hitting me before I start washing myself. So I get out of the shower and right away I'm up. I'm like a puppy, I'm awake, there is nothing stopping me now but this morning...this morning I am so not awake. I did everything I mentioned above and I am still sitting at my desk with eyes barely open. Now, I have just realized it...I'm getting OLD. I didn't go out and party hard or anything last night. I went bowling! Then I went to a bar but I was at home in bed by midnight. I usually fall asleep around like 12:30 anyway, I don't understand how doing that activity could make me feel so listless. I guess I am just not made to go out on weekdays anymore. I'm not even sure about weekends anymore. Cuddling up on the couch with a movie sounds like the perfect evening for me right now. OK here it is I know you are dying to know how I did in bowling last night. I didn't get an awesome score or anything. I am not that good at bowling. I always tend to twist my arm at the last second making the ball roll to the left or right. Yes, I do make a lot of gutter balls...want to fight about it? I also can make a strike every now and then and when I do it is such an awesome feeling. Until you turn around and realize no one was watching. Then its like OK well y'all just don't watch me at all anymore because I seem to do better when you're not! I would make a gutter ball...then I'd knock them all down and get a spare. I was totally learning from my mistakes! I'm going to write about something that's becoming near and dear to my heart now. My PFLBFHBD couldn't get a pass. For anything. It made me sad to hear that. Not because I will most likely not get to see him but because he won't be able to see his family. Family is the most important thing especially during the holidays. I just hope everything goes how he wants it to. I would love for him to be happy this Christmas, regardless of who its with. :-D. I suppose I should be getting back to work. Got to be able to say I earned my money instead of just sitting on my bottom all day. Hopefully someone gets me a camera for Christmas so I can start taking pictures of the things I write about. Then I can look cool like some other people on here, ha ha. Lots of love.

-Solittle

How to grow a woman from the ground.

I started writing this blog this morning and i didnt like anything i had put in it. So i deleted it and have been sitting her for a little bit now trying to think of what i should write about now. I keep getting sidetracked and watching music videos and My Name Is Earl on tv though. I guess i could start with what i did this weekend. Well on Friday me and my bff richard went to the movies to see role models...but the lady said its packed though yall will probably have to sit on the front row and i was like uh no its ok so we went back to his apartment to hang out and stuff since there wasnt much goin on and T-Rav came over and said something about a party in rockwall so we were like ok sure why not. Then i was like oh Amandas in town (my old best friend since like the seventh grade) and Richard was like no way and called her and then she said she might stop by and i was like yeah she probably wont...but she did! And me an Amanda talked for awhile about stuff just catching up because we hadnt really talked in a while. She doesnt call me...i dont call her...we just fell out and it made me so sad. When she had knocked on the door i was so excited that i almost started crying...but i didnt and i played it cool lol. So then Travis said the whole awkward well we were gonna go to a party but Richard didnt tell yall...but were going to be leaving here pretty soon. But it all worked out fine and me and trav and richard drove the 45 minutes to rockwall and on the way someone called and said to get beer and i swear we stopped at like 5 places before finding one that sold beer and it was like 2 minutes after 12 and they wouldnt sell it to us! so we went without beer and i didnt know a single person at this party...richard knew a few just cuz it was i guess all the same ppl travis hung out with at UT. So i just kinda stood around all night making random conversation with random folk...then we drove the 45 minutes home and then i drove home from richards and got in bed and went to sleep. Then saturday i went far far away allen and hung out with megan then drive to far far away mckinney which is not that far from allen but still far from my apt and hung out with one of my old buddies alex and his friend grames who had just got back from iraq like a week ago. Then some of alex's friends came over..it was a couple a and they were both texas tech fans so they wanted OSU to win but i wanted OU to win and i said something about it and the chick was like "did you go to OU?" and i was like no...but my whole family are OU fans and my cousin goes there...and she was like but did YOU go to OU..and i was like no. That ticked me off a little bit so you know i was like Did you go to OSU?? and she was like no but we went to tech and i was like so...did you go to OSU and then she started explaining the whole big 12 thing and how so and so needs to win to whatever and i was like well i dont care i want OU to win. Then i was like how about we change the subject. So after being a badass singer in rockband and some of a Caramel Apple Cider with extra caramel and whip cream from starbucks we started drinking games and my oh my were these drinking games crazy. Megan was buzzin after the first one and i would get a little tipsy then it would go away then come back. Ugh it was fun but sure was horrible. Then i got a text from this super awesome guy that im talking too basically saying that he was worried about me cuz he hadnt heard from me in awhile which totally made my night. Then i played one more game and got in my car to drive home while i spoke with that super awesome guy the whole long long drive home. Then got in bed to only sleep for a few hours before having to wake up to take my mom to the airport at 7am. Then i got back at around 8 and went to sleep until like 11 and took my brother to work at sonic and got some food and came home and snuggled up with a blanket on the couch and put in Definitly, maybe (which i LOVED btw) and stayed here almost all day long it was fabulous. I got like an allergy attack and had to get my brother to go get my medicing then i went to sleep early to wake up a couple hours later because of the stupid medicine. Then i fell asleep for good and woke up and went to work and talk to my super awesome guy and had a fantastic day. And now im here. Talking to my computer. Asking why it dies so quickly? Why do i have to have you plugged in all the time? Is it becuase i havent named you yet? Ok i will name you Pooter..because your bottoms always hot like your tooting. Lol. yeah i know im a goober. Its ok thats why some people HEART me. I think that this will be the best christmas ever. I am so so so so so super duper excited. I have a feeling things are going to go awesome. Almost perfect! So i was just on facebook and Cary messaged me asking if i could take a little survey for his psych class. I said ok only cuz your kinda cool. He said i need 3 adjectives to describe you and 3 to describe your perfect mate. So i thought and thought and for myself i put: Lively, dramatic and happy. Im not sure why i put dramatic im not extremely dramatic just a little bit and i didnt want to say like beautiful or anything because i didnt want to sound conceited lol. I already know everyone knows im beautiful i dont have to say it...HAHA wow i crack myself up. Now for my ideal mate i put: Handsome, romantic and i said obedient but was like jk jk...and said funny. I've thought about it and funny is so true. If a guy can make me laugh it doesnt matter what he looks like i will be attracted to him...and if a guy is cute AND can make me laugh then HOT DOG! thats what im talkin about! Now let me look for a great song to match my long pointless blog. Then this will be done and you will be happy because you got to get a little bit of my thoughts. Do you feel lucky? I do.

-SoLucky

When in Rome?? That doesn't fit this much...COOL SONG THOUGH

I was born in Miami, Florida (this is one of the reasons the dolphins are my team what what yeah boy) and moved to like St. Louis for a month or so before moving down here to Texas. We lived in Irving, Garland, Carrollton, and who knows who else before I was 6. We ended up staying in Carrollton where I lived until I turned about 18 or 19. Thats when my need for change kicked in. Since then I've lived in Dallas by the High Five and in Richardson...and addison. I recently moved back to Carrollton only finding that i want to now get out of Texas all together. I am trying to save up enough money so i can go with my grandma and grandpa on the yearly trip to Europe. I went when i was like 13 but I want to go now that im older and can appreciate it better. Ive thought about going with them and then just being like...nah i think ill stay here whenever its time to board the plane back to dallas. Oddly enough i have really really been interested in moving to Idaho. I think i mention that in an earlier blog. I went to http://www.visitidaho.org/ and WOW talk about pretty. My friend said yeah your going to move there and get bored and i was like whatever i can entertain myself dude! Who knows what will happen. As long as im happy. That is all im worried about now. I know it sounds selfish but my whole life i have put others first and worried about what everyone else thought and i wasnt true to myself. Now I can be. That doesnt mean im going to be a selfish biotch about everything...im just going to think more about the decisions i make. For example..when i go out and want to pay for everyone because they say their broke...then i go home and have to scrimp and save for the next week because i have no money. Stuff like that. I just need to listen to Mama. One thing that i have learned over the last few years is MAMA IS ALWAYS RIGHT. She brought you into this world and she CAN take you out. My mom used to always say that...actually i think she said it like last week...lol. Well anyways, I'm at work and should be working so...i guess i better get back to it. BTW I'm totally excited for December..not just for Christmas but i'll get to see my PFLBFHBD :-D. He sure is somethin special. Oh and im sending out the care package to my buddy in Iraq...Pray that he gets it, if not in time for, then on Christmas! I told him to take lots of pictures of him opening it so i can pretend im there lol. Ill be back to write some more soon. I love you, you, you, you and YOU. Especially you... ;)

-SoLOVing

Oh baby baby baby baby baby

I know American Baby isn't a Christmas carol but this is one of the songs that for some reason reminds me of Christmas time. When i was 19 and i had first moved out i moved into my friend Lara's one bedroom apartment. it was one of those apartments that were two stories...kind of like a town home but it was on the second floor. I had the living room basically. I remember i had gone to walmart and bought that inflatable Disney princess bed for kids. It was the most comfortable bed ever after it was a bit deflated. Not to mention it had a big inflatable castle around it and was purple and pink. I know you can picture me sleeping in one of those no doubt. Lara and i would get a bottle of Reunite Lambrusco each and start a fire and just hang out. Well that year i had bought the Dave Matthews Live at the Rock cd. It was amazing. I would always listen to it like alllll the time. Maybe that's why it reminds me of Christmas time. Lara had an inflatable Christmas tree that we had blown up in the living room. It was great good times good time.

This weekend has mostly been spent vegging out. Its fabulous. I may have gone out in the evenings but there are not many things that i love more then sitting on this couch and watching movies i haven't seen in years. For example...clueless is on my television as we speak and i am in a very comfortable position even with my laptop in my lap. Maggie is sprawled out comfortably on the couch as well. We feed off each others laziness.

I've met someone. I don't want to brag too much about it. Its a bit complicated. But he does make me feel super special and like...its amazing and its weird and crazy and i don't even know how to describe it. I just know that things are looking really well...and I'm excited about potential future situations. :-D . I know what i want now. I know what kind of person i need to be happy. I hope that everything works out nicely! Ok well I'm having trouble focusing on this and the movie at the same time so i will definitely be back to update.

-Solovely