Yup.

Friday is my last day with my grandpas company. I am going back to the service industry. I promised myself I wouldn't go back to it...but I think it might be my calling. I actually think that rather it be waitressing, bartending or managing a restaurant/bar...it is where I am supposed to be. I have too much energy and am too much of a "people person" to be cooped up behind a desk all day long. I have not been able to save any money because every two weeks I get checks that aren't even big enough to support me and usually by the next check I have little or no money left. Its a horrible feeling. The feeling of having nothing. I went to dollar beer night last night...and couldn't afford a dollar beer. How pathetic does that sound?? Well yesterday I put in my direct deposit for the check that I should be getting tomorrow...and I also gave my grandfather a check to sign that is my reimbursement for getting new tires on the car. I start working at the restaurant on Monday and will soon be getting cash in hand everyday. I think it will work out pretty well with already having money in the bank. I am going to treat it as if I have nothing and that all the cash I make from now on is new. I want to try and keep a base amount in my account. I have always tried to but it never worked out. I think I can actually do it this time though. I might use this next paycheck to get new workout shoes though. I wore them last night and the heel fell off of my left one. Good thing it was when I was leaving the bar. But of course I had to stop at CVS to get my mom some Robitusson so...I had to limp into the store with a missing heel. Oh and with my luck..there was a big group of firemen and an ambulance right in front of the door because a random homeless person (in Carrollton? I know...) walked into the store saying he was going to have a seizure or something. Poor guy. Its kind of selfish to me to be worried about what everyone was thinking of me when he was sittin on the ground. I had been so looking forward to go to my comfy bed with my comfy comforter though. Oh well. I've got to get to work. I need to stop procrastinating. I've got alot of work to do and I've got to finish it all by Friday. After Friday I am done. And I dont have to do anything with the company unless i want to after i get my degrees. YAY me! Okay here are a few pictures from last night::::




Proof the sole of my shoe fell off haha.



Don't worry babe, were posin he's not really tryin to beat me up.



Eder and Kate.



Thats all for now.

Love you!

-Solita

I know its been a little bit since ive written anything new so i thought i would get on and do a bit this morning. My Christmas went well, i got everything i wanted! I got two cameras, a wii, gift cards and the perfume i really wanted. Now i smell good all the time :-D. My New Years was okay. It wasnt the best one ever but it didnt stink. I was with my friends and it was fun...it was a little sad though when it hit midnight and everyone was a couple who kissed and i was kind of just standing there. Its ok though...its good for me to have a few lonely moments...it makes me stronger. Plus i know when i do have my right man i will never let him go. I will do everything in my heart and make sure hes happy. I must be happy of course...i wasnt happy in my last relationship and had to be really strong to make the decision to get out of it. It has taken alot of will power. Daniel kinda gets on me for answering the phone every now and then when he calls. He says im encouraging him. I havent talked to him in awhile though so its ok. I think he has finally started to move on. I'm happy for him and im happy i dont have to get that stressed out feeling as soon as i see his number calling. Ok new subject because that is lame. I am ready for Frank to come down here. I am very, very anxious about the visit. I dont think i want anything else more...ok maybe a new car but you know. It would be nice to have someone around to hug and kiss and love on. Someone that makes me feel like nothing in the world could hurt me. Its a kind of feeling that only someone special can give you...I think that it could be great. Our relationship is kind of a difficult one. We will need to fit like ten dates into each visit. I think it could all be worth it. The end results of so much patience and trust could be amazing. He makes me really happy. Even from so far away. I cant even begin to imagine how happy i will be with him here. If it werent for him i would most likely be depressed and not have any will power. I wouldnt work as hard as i do. I know exactly what i would be doing...because i did it before i met him...i would be lying on the couch in the bent area with my blanket...and not moving. I would probably have random spouts of crying. I hate that feeling. I dont have it anymore. Since the first night i talked to him while in my bathroom getting ready to go out on a friday night i have been nothing but optimistic about the future. Its so great. I literally am not sure if i could be getting by as well as i do emotionally without him. Ok thats alot of mushiness...i'm sorry i kinda drug that on a bit. Ok well...this is the end of todays post. Maybe i will do another one soon...if you're lucky. :-D.

Love,
Solita