I know its been a little bit since ive written anything new so i thought i would get on and do a bit this morning. My Christmas went well, i got everything i wanted! I got two cameras, a wii, gift cards and the perfume i really wanted. Now i smell good all the time :-D. My New Years was okay. It wasnt the best one ever but it didnt stink. I was with my friends and it was fun...it was a little sad though when it hit midnight and everyone was a couple who kissed and i was kind of just standing there. Its ok though...its good for me to have a few lonely moments...it makes me stronger. Plus i know when i do have my right man i will never let him go. I will do everything in my heart and make sure hes happy. I must be happy of course...i wasnt happy in my last relationship and had to be really strong to make the decision to get out of it. It has taken alot of will power. Daniel kinda gets on me for answering the phone every now and then when he calls. He says im encouraging him. I havent talked to him in awhile though so its ok. I think he has finally started to move on. I'm happy for him and im happy i dont have to get that stressed out feeling as soon as i see his number calling. Ok new subject because that is lame. I am ready for Frank to come down here. I am very, very anxious about the visit. I dont think i want anything else more...ok maybe a new car but you know. It would be nice to have someone around to hug and kiss and love on. Someone that makes me feel like nothing in the world could hurt me. Its a kind of feeling that only someone special can give you...I think that it could be great. Our relationship is kind of a difficult one. We will need to fit like ten dates into each visit. I think it could all be worth it. The end results of so much patience and trust could be amazing. He makes me really happy. Even from so far away. I cant even begin to imagine how happy i will be with him here. If it werent for him i would most likely be depressed and not have any will power. I wouldnt work as hard as i do. I know exactly what i would be doing...because i did it before i met him...i would be lying on the couch in the bent area with my blanket...and not moving. I would probably have random spouts of crying. I hate that feeling. I dont have it anymore. Since the first night i talked to him while in my bathroom getting ready to go out on a friday night i have been nothing but optimistic about the future. Its so great. I literally am not sure if i could be getting by as well as i do emotionally without him. Ok thats alot of mushiness...i'm sorry i kinda drug that on a bit. Ok well...this is the end of todays post. Maybe i will do another one soon...if you're lucky. :-D.

Love,
Solita